Always A Traveller

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Assalamualaikum wbt. Heyyy! The story continues. Aku tak pernah sangka yang cerita 15 precious weeks ni akan berterusan sampai harini. Well, to me, initially aku terfikir how can I continue cerita ni sedangkan aku tak tahu apa yang akan terjadi dalam hidup aku on the next days. And today, I am mesmerized by the surprises that God has planned on me. Indeed, 15 precious week punya journey ni akan berterusan sampai akhir hayat aku. Macam yang pernah aku cakap dengan Dr on my last therapy session, I will not give up and I will continue to live my life the best I can.  Sungguh, mengalah dan berputus asa pernah jadi zikir dalam kamus hidup aku. Susah sikit, aku mengalah. Salah sikit aku berhenti. Aku tak pernah berjuang untuk buat yang terbaik dengan setiap peluang yang aku pernah dapat. Rugi sangat! Aku lebih memilih untuk salahkan keadaan dan orang sekeliling dengan apa yang pernah aku dapat ataupun apa-apa yang terjadi dalam hidup aku. Tapi sekarang, aku pilih u...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم Hai! Assalamualaikum wbt. I'm back! Alhamdulillah exam End of Posting for Introduction to Surgery dah selesai dengan lancar yesterday. I'm so grateful that aku exam sama-sama dengan team A3 from medical posting, except for D. (yet he still came to the hospital on the day of examination to support us and others) For this entry, aku nak share pengalaman aku menghadapi exam kali ni. It's quite different and challenging. Well, actually aku susah nak start share pasal ni sebab my mind is not focusing on this matter at the moment. Cause now, I am worried about my presentation during short case examination and I am more terrified with the possibilities of me to redo the exam. Okay, let's forget about it! Jom start the story. Journey untuk exam kali ni quite long as compared to EOP medical. In surgical, previously akan dapat 1 week untuk study week before a centralized exam. Unlike this time around, exam was conducted in decentralized system as per requir...

بسم الله الرحمن الرحي Being skeptical is easy. You just have to create an ideal vision of something or someone, and you can start to compare and judge their reality through your idealistic lens. Without a single effort of trying to know them and get into their world, to understand and to communicate using the language they converse in.  That's how I've been viewing this life all years long. I have been keeping myself into an ideal world where I thought, everything should revolves around me, my wishes must all come true, people should put undeniable attention on me and loves me unconditionally through out my life. My visual of life is a constant fairy tale, where happily ever after is mainly the theme.  Hence, when real life isn't equal to fairy tales, it rages out the green monster I once mentioned before. I was so frustrated with life, I can't accept anything less than I expected, I deny undesirable things happen to me, I super-frustrated with people who did not fulfil...