Skeptical - 15 precious week of my life (pt. 2)

بسم الله الرحمن الرحي

Being skeptical is easy. You just have to create an ideal vision of something or someone, and you can start to compare and judge their reality through your idealistic lens. Without a single effort of trying to know them and get into their world, to understand and to communicate using the language they converse in. 

That's how I've been viewing this life all years long. I have been keeping myself into an ideal world where I thought, everything should revolves around me, my wishes must all come true, people should put undeniable attention on me and loves me unconditionally through out my life. My visual of life is a constant fairy tale, where happily ever after is mainly the theme.  Hence, when real life isn't equal to fairy tales, it rages out the green monster I once mentioned before. I was so frustrated with life, I can't accept anything less than I expected, I deny undesirable things happen to me, I super-frustrated with people who did not fulfill my eagerness on something and isolated myself from the one dearest to me due to my insecurities of not feeling perfect. 

Well, being skeptical also means having perfect idealisation in our mind. When we are constantly wishing for the best out of the best of everything and couldn't appreciate anything less, it is dearly a problem. A problem that we should bravely tackle with. It is okay to not be okay, as long as we always try to get ourselves back up and improve everything from time to time. People do says that, life is a journey, it never stops and not as promising as we would ever wished for. But, darling, that is the beautiful side of a life. Having to have the good and the bad at the same time is just enough. It is beautiful as it is. We paint our own canvas, with our own colours of life that we chose. Sometimes, we may pick the wrong colours and tarnished the painting we want to create. It's okay, just have a look at the painting and pause for a while. Observe what have you done to the painting. Is there any blank parts that you can work on? Is there any other colours that you can blend in with the one on the canvas? I bet, there is! Just focus on how to make it better. AND never throw the painting away. It is special for what it is. 

Similarly to life. There will always dark parts in our own lives. Just do not discard it. Embrace the hard times, the bad sides of you, the dark mind you possess. Learn on how they speak but never let them consume you. Learn to understand the reasons why you are doing them and slowly, pull your self back from going towards the dark side of you. What if you redo the mistakes? Pause, observe and forgive yourself. You make mistakes and should be forgiven. Then, focus on how to improve yourself, what can you rectify and add on to make you better.

Life is special just the way it is. Yours would be yours, and mine is incomparable. We race with ourselves, the one who we saw yesterday. NOT with anybody around us. Life is so short, appreciate everything blessed to us. May all of us be granted a peaceful life. Thank you.


Love,
Fikriyah

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